Wait for me

I am at times loving, Caring and full of warmth
I am at times full of spite when those who I love are hurt
I cry thinking of the people I love and the trials they are facing
I laugh hard at a silly joke cos it was shared by someone I love
I dance dreaming thinking of someone dancing with me
I am happy knowing that someone I love is happy
I smile thinking of the happiness that has been blessed on people I love
I feel smouldered with love by way too many people around
And then suddenly I feel ALONE
Without rhyme or reason. . 
I feel lonely
I feel helpless when I cannot do anything to comfort someone
I feel like there's no purpose
I feel lost
I feel like I am living a lie
I get angry.. 
I won't know why
Then I suddenly miss my mother
I see a father talking to his daughterAnd I feel I was cheated by life
A 1000 small things around me remind me of my mother, 
I feel like killing them all
I remember someone who walked into my life and gave me love 
filled me with confidence & made me forget about what I missed 
so much so that it made me miss my parents a little lesser
Then it hits me that someone walked away. 
Leaving me alone. Cheating me. 
Hurting me for no fault of mine.
That moment, I sink. 
I turn insane. 
I become a different person.
At such times, please bear me. 
Please say you won't abandon me
Wait for me. 
Wait for me because I will come back to my senses 
and be the happy smiling girl you know.

The woman in me needs to cry so that she moves on 
and faces the world with her strong face on
The woman in me needs you to know her as she is.
Hurt, vulnerable yet strong and loving.

Wait for me.I will smile again
Wait for me.I will forget all this bitterness, again.