It had been a long
wait
I had been waiting
for an eternity for him to come
And then he came
The love we had, the
love we felt, was all encompassing
It was so intense
that it almost suffocated,
Yet, so pure that it
liberated
I wanted to tell him
about all those little things I had fantasised about;
I wanted him to know
how I felt about those small gestures..
I wanted him to know
of all of these things that I had dreamt of,
That I had wanted,
for me, for him, for us;
I wanted him to
learn of all of it gradually, one at a time
I wanted him to feel
each one of those yearnings,
Know it, understand
it, feel it and absorb it,
So it became a part
of him, as it was a part of me.
I wanted him to know
all of this, one at a time.
I wanted to tell him
how I had loved the feel of his fingers in my hair,
Even before our
paths had crossed
I wanted him to know
how I wanted to make his arms my home,
I wanted him to feel
how I craved for the warmth of his breath on my neck
I wanted him to
realise that the sound of my name on his lips was music to me
I wanted him to see
how it burned me to have his lips on mine
I wanted him to feel
how I so wanted to burn
I wished for him to
know that the only way I wanted to wake up,
was to his sound,
smell and taste, and next to him.
I needed him to know
that, when we were with friends,
or in a crowd, I loved how our eyes would meet and smile,
I wanted him to know
how I loved that we spoke so much through silence,
His arms on my
shoulders, his hands holding mine,
A peck on the cheek,
our palms entwined,
That kiss on the
forehead before goodnight ,
that curve of a
smile in the morning, before kissing me tight
how his eyes
twinkled, seeing me just out of bed
how he’d hug me,
even before a tear was shed
I wanted him to know
how I had waited for all these things for years
I wanted him to know
how I loved these things so much that it hurt
I wanted to tell him
all this,
I wanted him to know
all this,
I wanted him to feel
all of this, one at a time
But before I could
tell, before he could know,
He had left.
I still have all these things unsaid, at times making it hard to breathe
At times making me
want to slash a wrist
Making me want to
let the blood flow
To inflict pain
physically
To let the hurt go
Now he is gone and
all those things I wanted, have turned morose
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